Fuck peri-menopause. FUCK IT!!! I do my best, I really do, I try to find the silver fucking lining to pretty much everything, but COME ON!!!
I am sitting here drenched as I type. Because why? Because I had fucking Chinese food! Apparently MSG can trigger hot flashes. The same way that too much salt can trigger hot flashes. The same way that caffeine can trigger hot flashes. The same way that alcohol can trigger hot flashes.
I have become a tea-fucking-totaler, a crunchy granola enthusiast, a purveyor of vegetables, not out of choice, not because it's the healthful thing to do, but rather because if I don't - IF I DON'T - I will spontaneously combust... sometimes several times in a night. I feel like Fawkes, the fucking Phoenix!
"Just kill me," I beg Rissa and David
"Oh love, are you hot?" asks David.
"Am I hot? AM I HOT?!? Feel beneath my breasts!" I lift up my tank top, exposing my unencumbered tatas. "You could deep fry tempura under here!!!"
Rissa averts her gaze. "Whoa!! Boobs!! Maternal boobs!!"
I do my best not to burst into tears. I would punch at the air, but the ineffectual movement would just make me hotter.
"Would you like a cool drink?"
"I would love an ice-cold chocolate fucking martini, but I can't have one because if I do, my insides will turn molten and I will DIE!!!"
"How about an ice pack?" David suggests helpfully.
An ice pack!!! Oh sweet Jesus, we have ice packs!!! I stagger down the stairs to the deep freeze, David's voice calls out behind me "I would have gotten them for you love..."
An angels' chorus greets me as I open the deep freeze - I weep at the beauty I find therein.
I come back upstairs looking like the beginnings of a bad BDSM scene. I have small packs around my ankles and wrists with a larger one strapped around my neck. I place myself in front of the oscillating fan to dry off my hot flash sweat.
"Better?" asks David.
"I don't have adequate words. I want to start a charity that will give these to my sisters throughout the world. SISTERS!!! SISTERS I WILL HELP YOU ALL!!!"
David and Rissa exchange a look. "It's possible she might be hallucinating right now."